An Open Letter From Me To You, Let Me Go

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Let me go if you only want me right now. If you only crave my touch at 4 am when you’re intoxicated and we’re the easy option. Do me a favor and keep your eyes off me. Even when our breath smells of loneliness and you can feel my desire to get high on your kisses, don’t fulfill it. Don’t look for my mouth if any pair of lips would make you feel the same. Don’t hold my body captive if you never plan to give me more than just your heartbeats.

Let me go if I’m the text messages you’re never excited enough to check right away but polite enough to reply anyway. Do me a favor and tell me the truth. Don’t respond to all my hello and end every conversation with ‘I hope to see you soon’ when you’re definitely not keen enough to follow through. Don’t ring me up only because someone else doesn’t answer your calls and now you’re bored and want a substitute to keep you company. Because trust me, we both deserve more. On Friday night I would like to be someone’s magic, not just hours and hours of meaningless banter that can only rely on substances to make it less painfully mediocre.

Let me go if I’m never that Friday night magic to you. If I’m never once the decision you make on a regular Tuesday, and never the face you have to see because nothing else would make you feel better.

If you already know what you’re looking for and I’m just not it, do me a favor and make it clear to me. Don’t choose me then find ways to change me. Don’t expect me to measure up to someone I’ll never be and never need to be, then leave me no choice but to fail short and hate myself. Don’t make me hate myself. Don’t make me feel like a boring person who’s never worthy enough of your interest. Don’t force me to face this void inside of me that keeps getting bigger and hollower every time I try to open up myself and nothing is ever heard, seen or understood. That’s when I feel lonely the most.
Let me go unless it must be me that you want but not anyone else.

I don’t need dinners or gifts or good morning texts if my time and affection is only a boost to your ego and a validation of your self-worth. I don’t need to heat up my bed with another body if that body is only there for instant needs that could be satisfied by any others. Because I’m never the type to get with someone out of loneliness, habit, or a primitive craving for physical contact. If I come to you, there would be a personal reason carrying your name, and I would stick around for the exquisite details that make you you.
There would never be another uneventful evening that I bullshit myself and others I don’t write about the people I’m currently involved with. I would write about you, if not directly then in characters and metaphors and abstracts. You would be the muse that gives depth to my words and I would no longer have to recycle old materials I’ve grown sick of and don’t feel a thing about. Because you would be here in my present and set fire to my mind every time I catch your sight. I would gaze into your eyes like you’re the one and only and I hope through my eyes you could see the best of you.
You would know that it must be you but not anyone else.

So let me go unless you want me the same way and some day even in darkness you can see my brightest colors.
Now, for starter, take a little risk and say hello if I have sparked an interest in you.
Text me if my name popping on your phone screen makes you a little bit jumpy and excited.
Call me and make a plan if I hold the power to turn your regular Tuesdays into quite a highlight.
Invite me to drinks and dinners if how I see the world intrigues you and being with me isn’t just passing the time but something you genuinely enjoy and look forward to.
Kiss me long and deep if my lips send chills down your spine and hold me tight if securing me in your arms takes weight off your chest.
Spend a night if waking up next to me is how you prefer to start your day.
Come back for many, many more days if my body starts to feel like home. So long as we’re together, we will be each other’s magic.

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I Hope Leaving Me Was For The Best

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How are you? Are you happy? I hope you are Happy, like they tell me you are. I hope she does things for you that I couldn’t do, like cook for example. I hope she does your bidding and makes you feel like a man. I really hope she ain’t half insecure like I was. I hope you are happy, I really do. And I hope leaving me was for the best.

So you don’t pick my calls. Is she the reason? I would like to think of it like a personal decision. Like, you don’t pick my calls because you don’t want to. But baby, why do you call me in the middle of the night? Or is it because you are lonely and she is asleep? You leave me twisted. You also making it so hard for me to move on. Every time you call (not like I’m…

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The Number Of Meals You Should Consume Daily

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PS. This rule applies to everyone regardless of ate, occupation or Health status. If you don’t know how small is small for you, consult with a dietician or doctor. Everyone’s daily requirement amount is unique.

Side Note: small is relative and subjective. It’s only objective when you handle this issue with a trained dietician.

I Hope Leaving Me Was For The Best

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How are you? Are you happy? I hope you are Happy, like they tell me you are. I hope she does things for you that I couldn’t do, like cook for example. I hope she does your bidding and makes you feel like a man. I really hope she ain’t half insecure like I was. I hope you are happy, I really do. And I hope leaving me was for the best.

So you don’t pick my calls. Is she the reason? I would like to think of it like a personal decision. Like, you don’t pick my calls because you don’t want to. But baby, why do you call me in the middle of the night? Or is it because you are lonely and she is asleep? You leave me twisted. You also making it so hard for me to move on. Every time you call (not like I’m ever awake to pick up)when I get your missed called, it drags me back to square one. How can I move on, if you won’t let me? You have moved on already. I think I deserve that too, we all do. I suppose.

Sometimes, the calls and texts and blocking me in social media makes me question your happiness and choices. Was it worth it leaving me? Was it for the best? Sporadic as those instances are, the times that you contact my sorry ass make me question your choice for walking away. You blocked me in Facebook, that was okay baby. Any sane person would have done. I have nothing against that, but was it worth it? I don’t understand, because, you still contact me. I thought that was suppose to our Good-bye l, for good. That’s the kind of thing people do. I thought.

If you are not happy, remember it was entirely your decision to walk away. I didn’t push you away. You decided I was too much and you needed something else. from my heart to yours, I hope you are finally happy.

I found happiness personally, finally. Not in the arms of a boy. I found happiness within. I focused more on me, I treated me right, started chasing my dreams and watching the sunset. Especially watching the sunset, it’s peaceful. You should try it sometimes. We were supposed to watch the sunset together, we never had the chance. I’m grateful for that. Apparently, it’s the only thing that I got to do that you didn’t have a chance to contaminate. And it keeps me sane.

Someday I hope I will meet someone, half man, half amazing. Someone who would sweep me off my feet(not in a fairy kind of way). I hope, I really do. I don’t wish for life alone, but this someone has to be half man, half amazing. Amazing enough to make me want to spend my limited free time with them rather than having a good time or working or watching the sunset.

If I don’t meet anyone, my half man half amazing,that’s okay. I’m finally in a good place. I’m okay with life alone. Made peace with that, I don’t fight life alone, not anymore. There are worse things that could happen to anyone, worse than life alone. Cancer for example. Life alone doesn’t look so bad, it seems peaceful and addictive. Life alone is trendy, it’s the new thing. Or so I tell myself. Actually, not the new thing, looks like a possibility in my new reality.

My love, I hope you are happy. And I hope leaving me was for the best. I hope she is everything I could never be. I hope she is everything you ever wished for. Do us both a favor, in case you read this. Do us both a favor and let me move on. Give me a chance to stop wishing we might have a chance. Stop contacting me on days you feel like you could. Because baby, that’s slowing my moving on. And it’s not fair.

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Benefits of Chlorophyll and sources

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Did you know that chlorophyll(the green pigment that gives plans the green colour) has more benefits that just to help plants absorb light and produce food, the process known as photosynthesis. If you remember your science, you definetly know this.

Research has shown that chlorophyll has benefits to the human body.

6 Benefits of chlorophyll
1. Acts as an internal deodorant; what do we mean by internal deodorant? This means that chlorophyll helps absorb body odour and leaves you fresh all day long. It absorbs toxins, normal body odours, acts as the purifier of the human body or should we use cleansing agent?

2. Enhances satiety; This means that chlorophyll can make you feel full for long. Research has shown that chlorophyll contains compounds that brings about the satiety effect and this could mean that we can use chlorophyll in weight management.

3. It’s a blood builder; chlorophyll swaps the magnesium for the iron in blood. This way, it makes iron more bioavailability/readily available for the body to use.

4.  Protects DNA Against Fried Foods;
Fried foods aren’t just bad for your waistline, they also contain chemicals known to damage colon tissue and the DNA of colon cells. Research has shown that chlorophyll is a protective food and it has shown to reduce colon DNA damage on people consuming high fat diet. Be warned, don’t go on a fat binge eating and use chlorophyll, just because I said so. its best to just cut down on the fats, altogether.

5. Its an antioxidant: this particular property is protective by nature. It protects body cells from destruction by free radicals in the body.

6. Helps in Wound Healing: when chlorophyll is sprayed on the wound, it speeds up the rate of healing. If you know anything about herbs, usually, they use green leafy plants on the wound. The science is on the chlorophyll, it contains compounds that help in the healing process of wounds.

Sources of Chlorophyll
a) All green leafy vegetables: spinach, kales, nightshade (managu), pigweed(terere), isaga, kunde, murenda, green broccoli

b) Other plant products: peas, asparagus, green grams(ndengu), French beans etc

c)Supplements: we have liquid chlorophyll and tablets for the same. There’s no dose for chlorophyll, so discuss with your doctor on the dose

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Liquid chlorophyll supplement

Aside: I’m not big on supplements, I prefer the diet therapy. Its pretty simple, just incorporated the green vegetables in your diet. Be careful in preparation, don’t overcook your vegetables, preserve the chlorophyll, and you don’t need to use the supplements. Let’s just eat our vegetables fresh and well cooked, Bingo! We have a winner, in this case it’s chlorophyll.

If you have experienced any benefits with chlorophyll, please share with us in the comments.

If you didn’t know about this benefits, stay informed and consume green vegetables.

PS. If you want to loose weight, don’t start on chlorophyll supplements without consulting with a doctor/nutritionist first. We don’t want another Genesis of a fad diet now, do we? The internet is a beautiful place, anything could happen.

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